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What comes to mind when you hear the word “relationship”? Most of us probably think of the personal relationships we have with various people in our lives—friends, family, coworkers—but we may overlook the fact that we also have a relationship with ourselves; with our thoughts, our beliefs,…

Isn’t it extremely odd that the vast majority psychiatrists, whose very profession is concerned with managing illnesses based on apparent mental symptoms, have an extremely limited understanding of human psychology? While some patients may be suffering from illnesses rooted in physiological issues, many others are struggling with issues rooted in deep psychological wounds. You can’t […]

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~A Lifelike Dream~ In the beginning there was a light So warm Your heartbeat The rhythm of my world Echoing softly through the ocean that held me My heart spoke You were always there Listening Wrapped in the fleece of your soft voice Cradled by your tender…

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~Benevolent Creatures~ You are loved Dear child There’s nothing I want more Than for you to understand this With all your heart You are not alone All your tears Are precious jewels Glistening a simple truth I smile quietly And sigh At this familiar sorrow These loose…

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As I explore the world of constructed identities and realities, I believe it’s essential that I move forward with the understanding that love is real. Indeed, in this world full of so many lies and delusions, love may be the only thing that is real. As I…

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~Intricate Mask~ Intricate mask Loose silver threads Bound together by fragile white lies Half-truths gathered in innocent desperation Searching for land in the sea of the ever-changing faces of reality Once upon a time You found yourself You found A self Gracefully come apart at the seams…

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“In order to live with integrity, we must stop fragmenting and compartmentalizing our lives… Every aspect of our lives is connected to every other aspect of our lives. This truth is the basis for an awakened life. When we live with integrity, we further enhance intimacy with…

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~Communion~ The darkness of a million lies Casts a web of shadows across this land Yes My heart breaks Love digs its fingertips into the soil At the edge of the cliff Barely holding on Knowledge has been mistaken for wisdom But have faith lovers For love…

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~The First Song~ Behold Wandering minds Driven always to seek Never to find We stood in that soft field of green At the beginning of the world  Brothers and sisters Beholden only to the celestial beauty Unfolding before us Bodies of light Intertwined But as the stars…

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~Coming Home~ Trying to find My self I am not My thoughts Not the thought That says I am I am not The sensations in my body Not my pleasure Not my pain I cannot be any of these things In isolation Any more than I can…

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Recently I had the pleasure of attending a retreat at the Krishnamurti Centre in Metchosin, British Columbia. The centre itself is located on a majestic estate which was a Krishnamurti school from 1977 to 1981, and is currently being used for a variety of spiritual retreats and gatherings. It…

I’ve been delving into the world of meditation lately. First I started by deciding I would not meditate to free myself from my thoughts and emotions, but instead meditate on summoning joy, sometimes listening to relaxing music as I meditated, sometimes just relaxing into my body and nurturing a smile that comes from my heart. […]

This is my first post in quite some time. So much has happened since my last post. Trials, tribulations, and missteps; lessons learned, revelations and victories. Love and heartbreak. Throughout it all there has been a very real ark of healing and growth. Of course the war isn’t over, but I’m learning to see it […]

This is it. Two days left on psychiatric medication and then a door into a new world will be opening for me. Of course everything won’t really just change over night (that might actually be a bad thing if it did), but after being medicated for over a decade this is indeed a huge deal […]

Last night I tapered my Diazepam (Valium) dose down to 5mgs. I’ve been adhering tightly to my 2.5mg per week taper schedule. On July 27th I will take my last dose, and on the 28th I will go to bed without having taken a psychiatric medication for the first time since I was 22. The […]

Last week marked Week #9 of my Countdown to Freedom from Psychiatric Drugs. I’m tapering 2.5mgs every Sunday night, and I was at 22.5mgs Diazepam (Valium) for the duration of the week. * Many of my experiences, personal interactions, and studies over recent years have strengthened my belief that the grand majority of so-called “mental illnesses” and […]

This week marked Week #10 of my Ten Week Countdown to freedom from psychiatric drugs. My last day on Diazepam (AKA Valium, being the only drug I am currently taking- the last in a cocktail of meds I’ve taken over the years) should be Sunday, July 28, 2013. While I fully recognize I must allow […]

On November 10, 2010, I was prescribed the “mood stabilizer” lamotrigine (brand name Lamictal) as a treatment component of my so-called “Bipolar Disorder”. I had taken various mood stabilizers since my “Bipolar treatment” began in 2002, and had experienced serious side-effects from each one, which ruled them all out as treatment options. My psychiatrist at […]

This journal entry is from March 03, 2012. I wrote it as I was lying in bed with my cat Isabelle, who is a little ball of love. I wrote it soon after waking, which was just after 2 pm (journal entry start time: 2:23 pm)… Today I changed my mind about God. Today I […]

There should be no discussion of expanding access to mental health services without acknowledging the dangers and inadequacies of psychiatric treatment itself. I believe it is important to acknowledge that medical model psychiatry is not a “cure-oriented” field of medicine. There is a great deal of scientific and medical literature- as well as thousands upon […]

In the past ten years, I’ve read only three books. All of these I’ve read in the past three months. Seroquel made it impossible for me to absorb and process more than a few pages of a book at a time (nevermind reading a whole book cover to cover). The last book I finished before that long […]